Title: Entertaining Angels
Author: Jordanna Morgan
Author’s Email: librarie@jordanna.net
Permission to Archive: Please request the author’s consent.
Category: Supernatural.
Rating/Warnings: PG.
Characters: The Foggs, Jules, and Passepartout.
Summary: Not every lost soul who wanders the earth on All Hallows Eve is
dead… yet.
Disclaimer: Jules and company, and everything that goes with them,
belong to Talisman Crest.
Notes: This is very much a Halloween ghost story. I originally wrote it
in the spring of 2003 for fanzine publication, but after more than a year of
gathering dust in my files, I decided that its time had come. I dedicate it to
the memory of Loralee, who to my regret never had the chance to read this
story, but who encouraged me greatly in its writing.
"In all the letting go, we’re
entertaining angels…"
~ The Common Children
The air was
bitterly cold, the sunlight on the snow a blinding brilliance. All else faded
into that whiteness except the distant sound of rushing water, the
frighteningly nearer shouts of searching men… and the hand clutched in his
desperate grip.
You have to let
go…
With a sudden
gasp, Jules Verne started awake, every muscle in his body still rigid with the
sensation of falling.
If the shouting
from the downstairs sitting-room was any indication, Rebecca Fogg had returned
from her latest mission for the British Secret Service.
Rubbing his eyes
with his fists, Jules stumbled wearily down the staircase of Phileas Fogg’s
house in London. For the last several days, he had been a weak and unprotesting
charity case; the Foggs had brought him here to recuperate, after a bout of
yellow fever which he had contracted in his travels with them. Under the
vigilant care of Fogg’s valet, Jean Passepartout, the penniless young student
was sure to have all the nourishing food and rest and warmth he needed to
swiftly regain his health.
At the moment,
however, he suspected he would as quickly recover in his own drafty garrett on
a diet of bread and water.
"Rebecca, it
wasn’t your bloody responsibility!" That was quite distinctly the voice of
Phileas, assuming a particularly high pitch of anger. "Preston was head of
the mission—it should have been for Preston to get his men out of there!"
"You
perfectly well know Preston isn’t competent for that sort of action!"
Rebecca’s voice now, every bit as sharp as her cousin’s. "In any case,
this was not about Preston. This was about my doing as I was ordered,
Phileas!"
The decibel level
reached a heated climax as Jules arrived at the sitting-room door, but against
his better judgment, he did not turn and march back up to the room kept for
him. As he stood mentally debating whether or not to knock, the door burst
open—disgorging a gaunt and swift-moving figure which very nearly bowled him
over. Phileas Fogg disappeared into the hallway without a single backward
glance, and a moment later, the slam of the front door resounded through the
house.
Somewhat
hesitantly, Jules peered around the doorjamb into the sitting-room.
Rebecca was
standing in the middle of the room, hands on her hips, for once looking oddly
out of place in her prim blue-velvet dress. It was her expression that did it:
she made hellfire and brimstone look beautiful, and absolute terror feel
thrilling.
Jules adored her.
Passepartout was
hovering in the corner, with a posture that in another man one might have
suspected to be cowering. He was the first to notice Jules, and his
shell-shocked expression instantly gave way to a look of concern as he rushed
forward. "Mister Jules!"
"Welcome
home, Rebecca," Jules murmured awkwardly. Under the circumstances, it
sounded perfectly ridiculous.
"Oh,
Jules." Rebecca’s hands dropped away from her hips, and she stepped toward
him, her expression suddenly transformed by contrition. "We disturbed you.
I’m sorry. Were you asleep?"
"It wasn’t
you that woke me up." The young writer once again rubbed his eyes, the
shadows beneath them a mute testament to physical exhaustion.
Rebecca’s own eyes
darkened. "Your dreams again?"
Jules nodded
reluctantly. The visions that had long haunted his sleep had grown worse since
his illness, allowing him little rest as he was increasingly awakened by vague
terrors. By now, he had almost reached the point of asking Passepartout to
concoct something to help him sleep.
Almost, but not
quite.
"You will
feeling better after you having the good supper," Passepartout said
solicitously, resorting to his ubiquitous serving-cart to prepare a cup of
coffee.
"Thanks, but
I’m not hungry." Jules trudged over to the high-backed sofa and sank down
onto it, looking up at Rebecca. "What was Fogg so upset about?"
"He was
simply being pig-headed about my latest job," Rebecca replied crisply, and
there was evasion in her tone of voice. Crossing the room to sit in the chair
facing him, she bluntly changed the subject. "What about this dream of
yours?"
As with a nod of
thanks he accepted a cup of coffee from Passepartout, Jules gave a tired shrug.
"I think I was somewhere in the mountains. I couldn’t see much, because of
the glare on the snow… but there were people chasing me. That didn’t matter,
though, because I was trying to hold onto someone at the edge of a cliff…
Rebecca, what’s wrong?"
While Jules was
speaking, Rebecca’s face had turned ashen. She shook her head, a troubled
hesitation filling the silence that preceded her reply.
"Jules, what
you just described… it’s what happened when my cousin Erasmus died."
A jolt as of
electricity shot through Jules. He had known that Erasmus Fogg was killed on a
disastrous mission for the Secret Service, but neither Rebecca nor Phileas had
ever told him exactly what happened, and he knew it was too painful a subject
to pry into. Phileas had been there; had tried, and failed, to save the life of
his younger brother.
How could Jules
have seen it in a dream?
…Yet the dream was
different, and even worse, than the reality.
"But that’s
not the way it ended in my dream," Jules murmured, shivering as he stared
blankly into the depths of that terrifying vision. "I wouldn’t let go. We
both fell."
"Phileas didn’t
let go, Jules. It was Erasmus who did." Rebecca looked away, folding her
hands in her lap. As she continued, her quiet voice could not have been more
changed from the angry shouts she had last exchanged with her cousin.
"But Phileas,
even to this day… never has let go."
The streets of
London seemed unnaturally quiet for an autumn evening, the shadows of every
doorway a little bit deeper. There was a sense of darkness and mystery in the
air; this was All Hallows Eve. Once a Catholic holy day built on Celtic
rituals, now an obscure observance left to rugged Irish countrysides and
superstitious immigrants—yet it had always held a certain fascination for
Phileas Fogg.
One ancient Celtic
myth held that on All Hallows Eve, the spirit world was free to intertwine with
that of the living. In some half-realized part of his mind, Phileas found it a
somehow appealing notion that on one night of the year, the souls of the dead
were close by.
Well… some of the
dead, at least.
The occasion went
largely unremarked in the bustling, modernized heart of London, yet here and
there on a stoop or a windowsill, a candle guttered within a hollowed-out
turnip. Phileas still recalled the legend of the Jack’s-lantern, as told to him
in his childhood by the Irish servants of Shillingworth Magna. In life, the
"Jack" of the tale was a notorious drunkard and prankster who played
a trick upon the Devil; in death he was denied entrance to both Heaven and
Hell, the Devil giving him only a single ember to light his way in the
darkness.
Phileas had often
felt a certain kinship with that ill-fated soul.
Whenever you’re
not around… there is no light.
Rebecca was
impossible. Simply, utterly impossible. On her latest mission, she had taken
too many risks, nearly compromising herself to salvage someone else’s bungled
operation. Agent Preston was thoroughly incompetent, in the true Chatsworth
mold—but he’d had the resources to solve his own dilemma, if not the brains.
Rebecca need not have been endangered.
Orders, indeed.
Sir Jonathan Chatsworth’s orders, of course. If the man ordered her to hurl
herself from the roof of Whitehall, Phileas had no doubt but that she would do
it.
Had she not
watched him count the cost that orders had exacted upon him?
Phileas abruptly
stopped walking and breathed deeply, surveying his surroundings. His brisk and heedless
pace had carried him some distance from Saville Row, into darker and narrower
streets.
What was done was
done, and there was no point shouting about it now. He always came round to
that, even if the next time he would end up shouting again anyway.
The next time…
Please God, let
there be a next time.
Meanwhile, there
was absolutely no way he could preserve his dignity if he crept back into the
house so much as one minute before an hour had passed. There was proper custom
to be observed in fits of temper, as with everything else.
A sudden gust of
wind cut like a knife down the narrow street, and Phileas shivered, wishing he
had not been too angry to snatch up his overcoat as he left. He sighed and
reached for his pocketwatch.
A terrific blow
smashed into his left ribs from behind, and the world spun away as he fell
crashing into the darkness of a trash-littered alley.
Instinctively
Phileas swung out at the dark shape looming over him. His right fist connected
firmly with flesh and bone, eliciting a grunt from his assailant, but his left
went wide as an unexpected red fire of pain blossomed along his side—red fire
that turned white as his ribs sustained another blow. A kick, this time.
Shouldn’t have been enough to stop Phileas… but it did.
The white fire
mingled with a black ache in his head, and as he courted unconsciousness,
Phileas knew he had suffered more damage than an unskilled pair of fists should
have caused. He felt the spreading warmth of blood—and he knew.
The first blow had
been struck by something very, very sharp.
Rough hands were
groping over his inert form, dragging greedily at his pockets. He felt the
chain of his pocketwatch being snapped loose.
Alright, then, Phileas thought dimly. Have anything except…
Clawlike fingers
seized his wrist, prying away his golden bracelet.
Phileas surged
upward with a sudden, raging force. His right fist landed solidly. With a
muffled oath, his attacker flailed backward—but before Phileas could summon the
strength for an offensive strike, another brutal kick landed against his side.
As he crumpled to
the hard uneven bricks, Phileas heard fleeing footsteps; but he saw only the
white fire, felt its heat transmuted to searing cold…
"For God’s
sake, shut the door, Erasmus. It’s freezing out there. Anyway, I still think
you’re out of your mind."
With a cavalier
shrug, Erasmus Fogg turned from the bleak white landscape outside the hunting
shack, shutting the door behind him. He was smiling, as he shambled across the
dirt floor to the rough wooden table and sat down, and his eyes were
ridiculously dreamy as he dangled his new trinket before them. The gold locket
sparkled in the light of the fire from the makeshift hearth.
It was so
typically Erasmus, Phileas thought with exasperation. Here they were, camping
out in a hovel somewhere on the side of a desolate snowbound waste of a
Prussian mountain, hours away from a vital rendezvous with a double agent—and
Erasmus had decided it was time to discuss family issues.
With a frustrated
sigh, Phileas rose from the fireside and stalked over to the table, leaning
across it to stare firmly at Erasmus. "I’m serious, Ras. You can’t go
through with it."
His brother
pointedly ignored him, continuing to admire the skilled craftsmanship of the
locket. Without Phileas’ knowledge, he had purchased it from a goldsmith in the
village at the foot of the mountain, intent upon making a gift of it to the
woman he was convinced he was in love with.
"Erasmus…"
"Why
not?" The younger Fogg looked up at Phileas, an abrupt demand in his
expression and voice. "Phil, I love Rebecca. In fact, when we’re home from
this mission… I intend to ask her to marry me."
"Oh, good
Lord…"
"What? You
had no complaints when I asked her before."
"Ras, on that
particular occasion, you were spectacularly drunk. You know as well as I do
that Rebecca didn’t take you seriously." Phileas sat down across from
Erasmus. "Listen to me. If you do this… it will only cause a great deal of
harm."
Erasmus stared at
him blankly for a long moment. Then, slowly, an odd smile flitted across his
boyish face.
"I think
you’re jealous, Phil."
"I am
not—" Phileas began, only to cut himself off sharply. He paused, sighed,
and drew a deep breath. Now, of all times, was a horrible occasion to trample
his brother’s feelings—but Erasmus was not giving him any way around it.
"Rebecca…
doesn’t share your feelings," he said quietly.
The smile was gone
instantly from Erasmus’ face. He sat for a long moment in stony silence, and
Phileas could feel the storm brewing. That was the way of it with Foggs.
"How should
you know?" Erasmus jerked suddenly to his feet. "You haven’t spent
half the time with her that I have, Phileas. You don’t know her at all. How
could you be the judge of what she feels or doesn’t feel about me?"
There was truth in
that, as far as it went. Erasmus was, and had always been, closer than Phileas
to their cousin Rebecca. They were two of a kind: hot-tempered, recklessly
adventurous, indifferent to the accepted ideas about what was decent and proper
in English society. No one, Phileas included, treated Rebecca the way Erasmus
did, and for that she loved him—as an equal and a friend. She wanted nothing
more, and in her eyes, to ask her hand in marriage would be asking her to
become something less.
It was because
Phileas stood removed from that friendship between his brother and cousin that
he could see clearly the way Rebecca felt.
Slowly rising as
well, Phileas spoke gently. "I simply know, Ras."
"It’s no
affair of yours!"
"Watching
over my family is my affair. Seeing that you don’t make a very foolish mistake
is my affair." Resolutely Phileas reached out and took away the locket,
its delicate gold chain slipping from the grasp of Erasmus’ tightened fist.
"I’m not going to see you destroy your friendship with Rebecca. She adores
you, Ras… but not that way."
For a long moment
his brother stared at him, shock and anger etched into that ruddy youthful face
which was so much more suited to cheerfulness and laughter. Then, with a sharp
huff of breath, he turned away and folded his arms.
Phileas closed his
eyes in a moment of silent heartache. Then he tucked away the locket beneath
his coat, and took out his pocketwatch.
"We have to
start moving if we’re to reach the rendezvous point in time," he
announced, turning to douse the fire on the hearth. "Come on."
Not without some
reluctance, personal tension gave way to official obedience. Erasmus slowly
turned and preceded Phileas out the door of the hunting shack, trudging off
into the diamond-bright snow. With a final sigh, the elder Fogg shook his head
and followed.
Half a dozen paces
into that cold whiteness, two gunshots ripped the air.
As many times as
that moment played itself out in his memory in the years to come, Phileas would
never determine whether he first heard the sound, or felt the heavy blow that
knocked the breath from his lungs. He dropped to the frozen ground, calculated thought
giving way to raw instinct.
Uphill of the
hunting shack, two dark figures moved between the leafless trees. Prussian
marksmen, closing in to confirm the kill; human wolves drawn to the scent of
blood.
Phileas drew a
breath, and drew his pistol, feeling the bitter cold of that forsaken place
gather squarely within his soul.
He repaid two
bullets for theirs, and the marksmen moved no more.
Ambushed.
Betrayed.
The word, and all
of its monstrous implications, pounded in Phileas’ mind. Yet the danger was immediate;
he pushed away thoughts of the cause for a later reckoning. Allotting himself
two seconds to gasp for breath, he clawed at the ache in his chest. His fingers
closed over the locket and brought it up, to find the remains of a bullet sunk
deep into its gilded surface—a bullet that had been meant for his heart.
Ras.
Erasmus, with his
youthful conviction of his own immortality, should have long since popped up
out of the snow with some flippant remark. His heart skipping a beat, Phileas
pushed himself halfway to his feet and tumbled over the edge of the snowbank.
Erasmus lay
unmoving in a small valley between the white drifts.
Unconsciously
Phileas thrust the locket beneath the folds of his coat as he stumbled toward
his brother. He had covered half the distance before Erasmus raised his head,
his face taut with pain—yet there was something quizzical and surprised, too,
about his expression.
He was clutching
his stomach, and Phileas could see the bright redness welling up between his
fingers.
You see? You’re
mortal after all, you idiot.
As Phileas reached
his side, Erasmus looked up, the bafflement changing to a determination which
filled the elder brother’s heart with a moment of incredible wonder. He held
out his right hand—the one not presently employed in staunching his bleeding.
"Help me up."
"You’re not
going to insist that I go on without you?" The nervous humor was
unthinkably perverse, and Phileas could not recognize the strained, hoarse
voice as his own.
Erasmus grimaced,
a pale shadow of a smile. "Would you?"
The thunder of
hoofbeats was rising from farther down the mountain. Ten horses. Fifteen.
"When Hell
freezes over," Phileas growled, and put his arm around Erasmus, lifting
him to his feet. He closed his eyes to the drops of scarlet dripping onto the
snow, and with his brother leaning heavily on his shoulder, they set out to
meet their divergent fates: the uncertain, and the final.
It was rather
ignominious, really.
What armies and
assassins, vengeful supernatural beings and even the League of Darkness could
not do, one lowly thief had accomplished on the streets of London: the demise
of Phileas Fogg.
This was the
thought that turned over in Phileas’ mind, as he lay bleeding his life away in
a cold dark alley. More than any other consideration, that humiliating concept
roused his effort to move, to survive—but his wounds brought him down before he
could stagger four steps toward the mouth of the alley. His attacker’s knife
must have found something vital, in its single lucky stroke.
Odds. That,
eventually, was what it came down to, Phileas thought rather dreamily, staring
up toward the one starlit patch of sky that was visible between the
close-crowded roofs. The odds had overlooked him for much of his life. Odds
that he would not return from a mission; odds that a Prussian bullet would not
find the single spot on his person which was shielded by a small gold trinket.
No, the odds had
never cared to give him his comeuppance for relentlessly courting them… but
sooner or later, the house must always win.
He wouldn’t have
minded so terribly much, if not for the argument. Fate had caught him in a
moment of embarrassing disregard for the precious value of those close to him.
His last words with Rebecca had been spoken in anger—as had his last real conversation
with Erasmus.
"Ye gods,
Phil. You really have been hard at your cups tonight, haven’t you?"
A unique sort of
chill crept down Phileas’ spine. The voice was distinct; he had not imagined it
in any sense that he could comprehend, and his years of intimacy with alcohol
had taught him a great deal about imagining things. Yet it was a voice which
could not be.
Erasmus’ voice.
The sliver of
moonlight falling into the alley had brightened and widened as the moon rose
higher in the sky. A dark shape detached itself from the shadows and stepped
into that light, gingerly, as if appraising a very delicate situation. Said
appraisal was summed up by a disapproving shake of the head.
Erasmus, just as
Phileas had last seen him—only without the blood.
Phileas blinked
several times and let out a slow breath. His head was throbbing more
thunderously than any hangover he’d ever had; the brick-paved surface of the
alley had gotten in more than one crack at him, during the fight with his
attacker. That explained much, of course. A good solid concussion, perhaps even
a fractured skull.
Now a pretty
delusion to let him know how far gone he was.
"Come on,
Phil. I know you can hear me." The figment of his fading mind that
purported to be Erasmus leaned down, hands braced on his knees, peering at
Phileas with a long-suffering expression. "You’re only lucky some
desperate character hasn’t come along and robbed you."
A hiccuping sound
that was suspiciously like a giggle somehow made its way out of Phileas. It
hurt, but it couldn’t be helped.
"Alright
then, have it your own way." Erasmus reached out to put his hands under
Phileas’ arms, as if to lift him to his feet.
For an
hallucination, this was proving to be a most vivid experience. Phileas could
actually feel the firm pressure of Erasmus’ hands taking hold of him;
even a sharp pain as the wound in his side was jarred. He let out a soft grunt,
and instinctively attempted to brush away the intrusive hand.
His uselessly
clawing fingers found nothing solid to grasp.
At almost the same
moment, the apparition started and drew back. Phileas heard Erasmus’ sharp
intake of breath; he saw, in the colorless moonlight, the black blood on his
brother’s hands.
Equally black
memories suddenly threatened to swallow Phileas up. Erasmus—the blood…
His own blood,
this time.
Then his
persistent hallucination was kneeling beside him. Without ceremony his arm was
pushed out of the way, and he felt his wound being explored by the hands which
were not there. "What happened? Shot? Stabbed? Phileas!"
Even for a dying
man, this was all really a bit too much. Phileas closed his eyes and turned his
head away, trying to will his mind to abandon this illusion. To die with a
clear mind was surely not too much to ask; to maintain enough dignity, at
least, to be aware of reality, instead of delirious and conversing with
imaginary phantoms.
"Answer me,
Phil…"
For the first
time, Phileas spoke directly to this apparition. The words somehow felt as
murderous as a knife plunged into his brother’s heart.
"You’re dead,
Erasmus."
Silence.
For a moment,
Phileas thought he was alone. For a moment as he opened his eyes, that thought
filled him with an unspeakable horror.
Yet Erasmus was
still there, gazing off into the middle distance. The expression on his face
was one of surprise—and something more. Concern and puzzlement and… yes.
Realization.
"I was
falling," he said quietly—to all appearances unaware of the pain those
three words aroused in Phileas’ soul. "Falling for what seemed like an
eternity… and then… I was here."
He raised his
eyes, and once more, Phileas saw a young man’s startled disillusionment harden
into the steel of determination. Smiling grimly, Erasmus placed a hand over
his.
The touch held the
chill of an icy Prussian river.
"I am
here," Erasmus said, in a firm, quiet voice. "And I intend to keep
you alive."
For a moment, a
profound silence filled the alley.
Then Phileas began
to laugh.
It was choked and
painful and it ended in a cough that gurgled most disturbingly in his left
lung—but it was a laugh, nonetheless. The irony, the impossibility of the
situation appealed to him. It was now Erasmus who proposed to hold on and not
let go.
No. Not
Erasmus. Not his brother’s spirit… but a machination of his own mind.
"Phileas?"
Go away.
"If you’re
really here," Phileas rasped, "you might be so kind as to go and
fetch a doctor." It seemed like a reasonable idea. At the very least, a
pretext by which to drive off this illusion.
Erasmus started
slightly. He looked up, toward the mouth of the alley, then down again at
Phileas. His brow was creased by a frown of confusion; he shook his head.
"I… can’t."
"Ah."
Phileas closed his eyes, a silent dismissal. "Let me tell you why that is,
Erasmus. It’s because you aren’t really here at all… I’m only imagining
you."
He could feel a
frustrated tension in the silence which followed this blunt pronouncement.
"Believe that
if you want," Erasmus grated at last. There were some scraping sounds as
he moved—and Phileas suddenly felt himself hauled bodily up from the ground.
His eyes snapped
open as pain flared in his side, but the movement was too swift to resist. It
was over as quickly as it began, and he found his head and shoulders resting on
the lap of Erasmus, who now sat with his back braced against one of the walls
enclosing the alley. His right arm lay lightly across Phileas’ body, clasping a
hand over his side to staunch and shelter the wound there.
Somewhat absurdly,
Phileas’ first reaction was indignation. To be manhandled by a mirage was an
entirely new level of indignity—yet the very fact of its unreality made it
pointless to argue. Besides, hallucination or not, he felt somehow warmer and
more comfortable there… in his brother’s arms.
"I know my
time is short," Erasmus whispered. "I can’t leave you, but I will
help you… if I can."
It was the tone of
voice he had always used when he was utterly transfixed by an idea. Occasions
such as, for example, the last day of his life, in the hunting shack… and on
the cliff. And in spite of himself, Phileas found himself giving in to that
once-familiar bullheadedness.
Closing his eyes,
he grudgingly resigned himself to whatever illusions his mind might seek, to
ease the shock of dying.
The ticking of the
clock in the sitting-room seemed to be getting louder.
Well, perhaps it
wasn’t, but its relentless sound was beginning to grate on Jules’ nerves. It
resonated across the void left by the absence of a friend. Fogg had been gone
for nearly two hours now, and his supper was left to grow cold, much to
Passepartout’s distress.
Yet it wasn’t the
noise of the clock that was distracting Jules from his writing. For the better
part of the last hour, he had been sitting at the desk with his notebook open
before him, but the pencil in his hand remained unmoving. The limitless
possibilities of the blank page should have inspired him—but the longer he
stared at it, the more its empty whiteness reflected a lonely expanse of
mountain snow.
Phileas never
has let go.
Perhaps that was
the meaning of the dream, then. In the same sense that Fogg had not let go, he
too had fallen—and to even deeper depths than his brother. Jules never had
learned to understand those depths of blame and guilt; he saw only rare
glimpses of them, for the substance of his past, if not the shadow of it, was something
which Fogg held locked away deep within his heart. Yet in every moment that
found him silent and still, it was all there behind his eyes, stealing a few
shades of their light.
You have to let
go…
Jules jerked
upright in his chair, like a marionette whose strings had been pulled taut. A
sudden sense of urgency was vibrating in his nerves. He turned to look over his
shoulder at Rebecca, but she was sitting on the sofa with a book in her hands,
oblivious to his sudden movement. He knew, as well, that her mood was still…
precarious. Perhaps only more so since he had related his dream—no doubt
stirring memories which must have been painful for her.
Swallowing hard,
he rose and stepped away from the desk. "Rebecca… I think we should go
look for Phileas."
Two blue eyes
raised themselves from the retreat of the printed word, to fasten upon his with
a look of mild—and mildly reproving—incredulity. "What on earth for,
Jules? He’s just had a fuss and gone out drinking or playing cards. You know he
does it all the time."
"I know,
but…" How could he explain a feeling of un-rightness? Jules shook
his head, and tried to win with mere persistence what he had no logical reason
to request. "I just feel like something might be wrong. I’d feel better if
he were here."
The book snapped
shut. Rebecca set it aside with a dubious expression and leaned forward,
folding her arms over her knees. "Jules, you’ve been ill, and you
shouldn’t be running around London in the night air. Besides, Phileas could be
in any of a hundred places—half of which do not even permit women within their
doors." Her voice dropped indignantly upon this conclusion.
Passepartout, who
had been standing by and fussing with the tea-service, chose that moment to
come to Jules’ defense.
"Miss
Rebecca, I am thinking Mister Jules is right. Is the Eve of All Souls. Many
scary things walking the earth on this night." The valet solemnly crossed
himself, eyes turned heavenward. "The dead spirits, they come back, to
haunt the living."
"Poppycock."
Rebecca pronounced the annoyingly English word with a tone of finality.
Two unwavering
French gazes meted out a silent reply.
With a
long-suffering sigh, Rebecca suddenly rose from the sofa. "Oh, all right!
We’ll go out and look for Phileas—and he can very well hope that I am
not the one who finds him first. ‘Dead spirits’, indeed… Come along, Jules, you
had better dress warmly."
She did not
remember Lazarus, then. Jules wondered if Fogg had ever really bothered to tell
her.
However, that was
a story for a more peaceful Eve of All Souls, when ghostly tales could be told
amongst friends round the fireside. There was an idea in that; Passepartout
would relish the opportunity to share his grandmother’s superstitious yarns,
and Rebecca might be amused by them when she was in a better mood. Fogg, of
course, would sit lurking behind his newspaper and scoff at such things—but
that was only to be expected.
His heart torn
between hope and dread, Jules followed Rebecca and Passepartout from the room.
"Phileas,
stay awake. Stay with me."
The voice
distracted Phileas from the contemplation of a most enticing darkness. His head
hurt, and he was bloody uncomfortable, and who was talking to him and why
couldn’t he just sleep?
Then he remembered.
Stabbed somewhere
round about the spleen, or the left lung perhaps, and robbed. Bleeding to death
in an alley. A worthless way to die, even by his own ambivalent valuation of
his life.
And a cracked head
conjuring the delusion of his dead brother to keep him company.
With great
reluctance Phileas opened his eyes to find Erasmus still holding him, peering
down anxiously into his face. The worry that was reflected there eased just a
little at the sight of his annoyed grimace. "Ah, good. Come on, Phil… don’t
leave me now."
Something about
those words affected Phileas profoundly.
He had not
left—had not let go—when Erasmus had asked him, begged him to. Now Erasmus
asked him to stay, and he could not refuse his brother again. Even if this
wasn’t real, he could know that he had done his best to humor this shadow of
Erasmus; the thought would count, at least to him. Letting out a ragged breath,
he silently collected himself. His strength. His will to survive.
Erasmus apparently
noted the effort, because he smiled gently, if perhaps a bit sadly.
"That’s better. You must talk to me, and keep alert."
"I don’t feel
like talking," Phileas retorted querulously. His voice was low and rough;
his throat ached, and he was thirsty, although the pain in his side seemed to have
diminished. "You talk. If you really are Erasmus… you ought to be
able to tell me something about the glories of the Pearly Gates. —Or are you
better acquainted with a different sphere?"
"I won’t
dignify that with a reply." Beneath him Erasmus shifted his position
slightly, as though he had sat still for too long and was feeling a cramp, and
on some level it amused Phileas that an hallucination—or indeed a ghost—should
be subject to such physical discomfort. "I don’t remember."
"I don’t
suppose you’ve seen Father, then." Phileas closed his eyes. "No, of
course not… You could never have gone where he must be."
The silence in
reply stretched just a bit too far, and he looked up to search Erasmus’ eyes.
He found deep sorrow there—and for all he refused to believe that this was
truly his brother, he suddenly regretted that he should have caused that pain.
"Then Father is
dead," Erasmus said softly. "I thought, somehow, but… Tell me, Phil,
what happened to him."
"His heart
failed. Some time after…" Phileas couldn’t say the words. In a very deep
place within his own heart, he was sure the horror which took place on that
Prussian mountain had killed Sir Boniface Fogg, as surely as it had killed his
younger son.
That… and his
elder son’s bitter rejection of him, in the aftermath.
Erasmus was quiet
for a long moment. When he spoke at last, his words astounded Phileas.
"Then… it was
me that killed him."
"No!"
Phileas managed a slight shake of his head. "Absolutely not. It was you
who made him truly live. God knows Father never thought I was worth living for…
or dying for."
Phileas was the
elder, the heir apparent. From the day of his birth, Sir Boniface Fogg had
intended to make his son worthy of that duty and privilege—worthy to succeed
him as head of the British Secret Service. His means of assuring that had been
hard, sometimes even cruel… and ultimately, a failure. Even Phileas’ own mother
had watched what he became at the hands of his father, seen the shadows that
lingered in his soul, and regretted it; and, thank God, had not permitted the
same to befall Erasmus.
Yet Erasmus had
accepted willingly the duty which Phileas resented, and for that, their father
loved him. As for Phileas, he was a lost cause, a fatally flawed experiment.
He closed his
eyes, remembering the hand of his brother as it slipped from his, and later the
hand of their grieving father extended to him at Erasmus’ memorial service—a
hand which he had refused to take. It was the harsh and calculating hand which
had sought to shape his life to Sir Boniface’s own grim purposes; the silently
searching, pleading hand which, not an hour later, he had pushed away from him
forever.
"No, Ras. It
was me… I killed him, too."
A slight start
passed through Erasmus. "What?"
"You don’t
know what really happened on that mountain. The truth came too late."
Phileas drew a breath, deep and painful, and felt it tremble with the force of
emotions aroused. "Father knew there were questions about the integrity of
that double agent we were sent to meet. He knew… and he sent us
anyway."
Silence, for a
long moment. Erasmus leaned back slightly, his posture stiffening, in a manner
very typical of a Fogg who was confronting an unpleasant fact.
"Ah," he
said at last. Phileas had perfected every nuance of that eloquent monosyllable,
but Erasmus had always possessed a command of its expressive range, as well.
"Well, the
truth is… I would have done the same," he concluded, after a long,
contemplative moment.
Struck speechless,
an expression of shock was Phileas’ only response.
"Oh, come on,
Phil. The information that double agent claimed to have could have broken the
security of Prussia’s entire intelligence network—and doubts or not, he’d
steered us right in the past. You more than anyone ought to recognize a good
gamble when you see it."
"Father gambled
with the lives of his own sons," Phileas ground out. "Pawns on a
chessboard, Ras… he didn’t care."
"No. Phil,
listen to me. I know he was harder on you than on me; I know you and Mother
protected me. But I know things you don’t, as well. I remember once when we
were young, after you’d been punished—no doubt for something I had done. I saw
Father standing outside the door of your room, listening to you cry… almost in
tears himself. I know he didn’t take any pleasure in being harsh with us."
Erasmus paused. "I think he knew the kind of life he lived could put us in
danger, and he wanted to make us strong enough to protect ourselves—because he
loved us. He loved us both."
It was an
interesting theory, and Phileas wished he could believe it. If he could have
felt that his father had loved him, perhaps he could have resented less what
his father had made him become: something he feared no one could love.
Instead…
"He blamed
me, Ras," Phileas whispered, his voice becoming rough. "When I came
home, without you… he dared to blame me, when I—"
"Shh."
Erasmus laid his left hand on the side of Phileas’ head, stroking his hair,
almost the way a mother would comfort a child. "That just sounds like
Father being Father—always in need of someone to shout at. Anyway, I’m sorry I
wasn’t there to take what I deserved of it. Seems you took the blame for my
stupidity yet again."
Phileas rigidly
blinked away the tears he felt gathering in his eyes. "I’m the elder.
Looking after you was my responsibility."
"Do I detect
a note of wounded pride in your voice?" Erasmus grinned down at him.
"Yes, Phil, you were the responsible one. You were the careful one,
at least when it came to me, and you did your best to shelter me. I find,
however… that sometimes one only wins by letting go."
On those solemn
words his eyes met Phileas’, filled with a directness and meaning that forced
the elder Fogg to look away, lest he lose his composure.
"I didn’t
want you to be like me," Phileas murmured.
"And you were
just like Father." Erasmus grinned at Phileas’ ungrateful glare. "I
was once fool enough to take your concern as jealousy, you know. I thought you
were always trying to come between Father and I—protecting me whether I wanted
it or not, and all of that. It’s only now I realize… I was the one who
came between you and him. God, even after… when you needed each other
most."
"Ah, but you
between us was the only tie that Father and I ever had." Phileas smiled
ruefully. "Warring over the fate of your eternal soul was the one thing we
had in common."
His brother
chuckled softly. "In that case, I’m afraid Father won my soul. And yours
into the bargain, I suppose."
"No. Not
mine… Not all of it." Phileas closed his eyes briefly. "I quit the
Service, after."
Erasmus gave a
start as though he had been pinched.
"Does that
really surprise you?" Phileas felt a stirring of grim amusement that was
not unwelcome.
"Knowing now
what happened between you and Father… no, I suppose it shouldn’t." Erasmus
carefully shifted the weight of Phileas’ upper body across his lap. "It’s
only that, finding you here like this… well, I rather assumed some foreign
assassin had happened along. But if no one is out to kill you just now, then
precisely how did you get into this fix?"
"Oh, I can
assure you, I am still wanted dead in any number of countries. Rebecca has seen
to that." Not quite comfortable with the way Erasmus had settled him,
Phileas moved slightly, grimacing at the renewed pain. "In point of fact,
a common thief caught me by surprise. A grand and noble ending for a Fogg,
don’t you think?"
His brother
ignored the bitter sarcasm; he always had. "It’s no ending if I can help
it."
"Do you know…
the wretch even got your locket. Or what was left of it."
A faint smile
flitted over Erasmus’ lips. "You mean to say you’ve actually kept it with
you?"
"After a
fashion. I had the gold made into a bracelet. It’s not funny," Phileas
grumbled, as Erasmus let out a snort of surprise and amusement. "It was a
gift from your heart, meant to win Rebecca’s… and it caught a bullet meant for
mine. I suppose I thought there was something binding in that. I wanted to keep
it near me. I should have given it to her, but—"
"I’m glad you
didn’t." Erasmus shook his head at Phileas’ puzzled frown. "You were
right, Phil. Rebecca was not a prize for me to win, and I would’ve lost her
esteem if I’d treated her as such. I was only a friend—and I’d be very grateful
if you let it stay that way. Don’t let her search the past for evidence of
things better left unsaid; don’t tell her how I felt. Please."
Phileas winced.
"I don’t believe I’ll be telling Rebecca anything anymore, Ras."
"Here, none
of that now." Erasmus shook Phileas’ shoulder very gently, in mild admonishment.
"You’re going to live, because I’m trusting you in my place to take care
of our sweet… innocent… little lamb of a cousin." He grinned.
"Or do you think you might not be quite up to the task?"
A crooked smile
was Phileas’ skeptical response. "I do believe you’re asking a
miracle."
"A
miracle," Erasmus repeated thoughtfully. He lowered his eyes, and a gentle
smile crossed his face. "Yes, Phil… I think a miracle would do very
nicely."
On the front stoop
of McLeod’s gambling house, Rebecca Fogg primly adjusted her hat and dusted off
her lace gloves, casting an ill-humored glance over her shoulder at the door.
"Well. I don’t think Phileas was in there."
"You could
have just asked," Jules retorted plaintively. With a wince he
rubbed his shoulder, his fingers finding a tear in the seam of his coat. One of
Fogg’s coats, actually, requisitioned from Fogg’s wardrobe by Rebecca, over the
misgivings of Passepartout. It was too long for Jules, but warmer than his own,
and far better suited to the sort of places Fogg frequented.
And now it had
been ripped in a slight… altercation, caused by Rebecca.
"Jules, that gentleman
made an insult to my honor." Rebecca floated down the steps, with the
grace and beauty of a thundercloud. "I thought he needed a bit of a
talking-to."
"With the
fists?" Passepartout interjected dubiously, rubbing the back of his
head—which Jules thought had recently suffered a forceful collision with a
swinging wine bottle. At an ominous glance from Rebecca, the valet took a step
behind his fellow Frenchman.
"I don’t know
about you two," Rebecca announced flatly, "but I’ve had enough of
this. Wherever he is, Phileas can take care of himself perfectly well."
Heaving a sigh, Jules
trailed after Rebecca as she started off down Piccadilly. They had inquired at
most of Fogg’s particular haunts, from the Reform Club to McLeod’s, without any
success in finding him—and Jules had only become more concerned. Fogg was a man
of strict habits, at least when he wasn’t being shot at, and his absence in his
habitual places did not bode well.
Perhaps he was
already back at the house, working up to a hangover… provided he ever got
hangovers anymore, after half a lifetime of hard drinking. Jules couldn’t
remember any evidence to that effect. It was just one more facet of Fogg’s
annoying superiority that he could spend an entire evening with the bottle, and
still appear fit to take on an army by dawn.
"’Ere now,
you looks like a gen’l’man of good taste. ’Ave a look at this."
With a start,
Jules turned to face the summons. A short, grizzled-looking man in a dirty pea
jacket stood by a streetlamp, peering up at him brightly from beneath the brim
of a battered cap. He held a small bundle of something in his mittened hands.
"Jules, who
is that?" Rebecca had stopped walking and turned to observe—taking no
notice of the fact that Passepartout continued to trudge obliviously onward.
The man glanced
toward Rebecca, then smiled conspiratorially at Jules. "Want a pretty
thing for your lydy friend? Let’s see now." With a rather poor attempt at
a flourish, he spread open the rust-spotted handkerchief in which his bundle
was wrapped. Within it lay a tangle of watches and bits of jewelry, most in
questionable condition; in all probability, stolen.
Perhaps it was the
way he turned his hand, some curious trick of the light. One of the trinkets
caught the glow of the streetlamp just so, and for an instant, reflected a
flash of brilliant whiteness.
Hoofbeats and
gunshots and scarlet against snow—
It was Phileas
Fogg’s bracelet.
Almost reflexively
Jules caught the old peddler’s wrist, prompting a slight grunt of protest, but
he didn’t care. He picked up the bracelet. It was no mistake; there, on the
underside, was a small scuffed spot which Passepartout had caused with an
experimental polishing solvent. Fogg had come close to slaying his valet over
the error, and Jules hadn’t understood why. He’d never met another man who wore
a bracelet. What did that slender band of gold mean to his friend?
The clasp was
broken. It had not been gently removed from its owner’s wrist.
"Where did
you get this?" Jules demanded.
The peddler
squinted at him dubiously. "I buyed it off a man what wanted to sell it,
not two hours past. If you’re a-likin’ of it, sir—"
With sudden force,
Jules shoved the peddler against the lamppost. "What man?"
The threat in his
own voice frightened him; the alarm and anger that drove him to hold an old man
pinned by the throat frightened him.
Rebecca had
reached his side, and her light but restraining hand came to rest on his arm.
"Jules! What’s the matter?"
Fogg was in
trouble—and that frightened him.
"I never seen
’im afore, honest, guv’nor!" The peddler tried vainly to squirm away.
"Ugly brute ’e was too—face all puffed up and bloody. Somebody did ’im a
good one, that’s sure enough!"
"Did who?"
Rebecca protested.
"Whoever it
was that took this from Fogg." Jules held up the bracelet between finger
and thumb for her to see clearly in the light.
Rebecca stared for
a moment. Then, without ceremony, she pushed Jules out of the way, and her
dainty lace-gloved hands replaced his at the peddler’s throat.
"I would like
to know who sold you this, and where," she said. So quietly. Just the way
her cousin spoke, when it meant a wrong answer was going to get someone
seriously hurt.
"I swear I
don’t know ’is name!" the peddler protested frantically. "I ain’t
seen ’im ever, afore ’e comes up to me along about Saint James’ and says let’s
bargain, and that’s all, Ma’am!"
"Saint James’
Square." Rebecca abruptly released the peddler, who slumped against the
lamppost and gasped for breath. "We’ve already been down that way, asking
after Phileas at the Reform Club."
Jules swallowed
hard. "But… if he’s hurt…"
It was difficult
to tell in the dim yellow lamplight, but he thought he saw Rebecca turn pale,
in the moment before she turned on her heel and hurried off in the direction of
Saint James’ Square. Passepartout, who had finally realized he was walking
alone and was hurrying back to rejoin them, swiftly changed his course at a
sharp gesture from her. Clutching the bracelet, Jules moved to follow.
"’Ere!"
The peddler had evidently recovered his wits, now that Rebecca was retreating,
and he raised his voice in protest as Jules began to walk away. "I bought
that right and fair, and if you’re thinking you’ll be takin’ it, I want what’s
owin’ me."
Jules stopped in
his tracks. The bracelet may have been stolen goods, but if the peddler claimed
to have bought it in good faith, Jules could see no way around giving him the
benefit of the doubt—especially after they had all but assaulted him. In any
case, he was in neither the mood nor the condition to fight over it. On the
other hand, what little money the young writer had was safely tucked away in
his coat pocket, back on Saville Row. The pockets of Fogg’s coat which he was
now wearing were empty. Rebecca would doubtless have some money at hand… but at
the moment, it seemed extremely unwise to get in her way with this little dilemma.
Perhaps later Jules could sneak back and retrieve Fogg’s bracelet, but all that
mattered now was retrieving Fogg himself.
Sorry, Fogg, he thought, and throwing the bracelet at the feet of
the peddler, he ran after Rebecca.
Phileas must have
been drowsing, for he became suddenly aware that Erasmus was moving, gently
easing him down onto the cold bricks paving the alley. He opened his eyes,
perturbed by such a disruption of his comfort—although he now felt little pain.
"What are you doing?"
Erasmus was
crouching over him. His left hand was resting lightly on Phileas’ chest, as
seemingly both a comfort and a restraint. Yet his gaze, as it met Phileas’, was
distant.
"I have to
leave now."
The elder
brother’s heart skipped a beat, his muddled mind trying to make sense of the
words. Erasmus, leaving him alone in the cold again—letting go, falling away.
No. He couldn’t this time, not again. Never again.
Phileas drew a
breath, drew upon whatever faith was in him… and seized Erasmus’ hand in both
of his, feeling his brother’s flesh and bone become solid in his grasp.
Erasmus looked
down at his captured hand; then up again, slowly, to meet Phileas’ triumphant
gaze. And he smiled, with the infinite sadness of which only a Fogg was
capable.
"Don’t say
it," Phileas hissed. "Don’t you dare."
An icy chill had
begun to work its way from his fingertips up through his hands, spreading from
the point of their physical contact. Without knowing how, Phileas understood
precisely what it was. It was the touch of that which had taken Erasmus
once—and now had come for him again.
Phileas held Death
in his hands.
Holding his
brother’s gaze, Erasmus slowly shook his head, and there stretched open between
them a chasm of emotion as vast and chilling as a mountain gorge in midwinter.
"You have to
let go, Phileas."
Snarling a curse,
the elder Fogg tightened his grip, and felt the numbing cold progress up into
his arms. He knew that it was creeping slowly, steadily toward his heart—there
to still its beating. Yet Erasmus had made no effort to pull away… and Phileas
realized suddenly that he could not.
Only by Phileas’
own free will could they both be released.
"There’s
nothing you can do to keep me," Erasmus said softly. "If you try to
cheat Death, you’ll only forfeit your own life."
"It’s
forfeit, then," Phileas ground out. "I won’t let you go again."
"Phileas."
Erasmus leaned closer, an earnest plea in his eyes; they reminded Phileas of
his father’s eyes, that last day, at the memorial. "It isn’t your time.
You’re meant to live, for others’ sakes if not for yourself. Please, don’t undo
the work I came back to do tonight."
Phileas squeezed
his eyes shut. The first tendrils of cold slithered into his chest,
crystallizing slowly, like frost gathering on a windowpane.
"If you
believe you owe me a debt, then I discharge it. Better still, I transfer it to
Rebecca. Repay me for my life by protecting hers—because if you only throw away
the life I’ve tried to save, you’ll dishonor me, Phileas." Erasmus drew a
deep breath. "You have to let go."
For Rebecca.
For honor.
Erasmus knew too
well how to reach Phileas’ heart before Death could.
Something broke
within him, and slowly, his fingers loosened their grip on Erasmus’ hand. His
eyes had become clouded with tears, and he closed them again, clinging to one
final image of anxious hope and relief in his brother’s face.
"I don’t want
to lose you again," he whispered, as the cold closed in around his heart.
"Never,
Phileas. I am always with you." Erasmus paused, and a gentle humor crept
into his voice. "Hurry now. I think Father is waiting for me—and you know
how he gets when one of us is late."
The joke was so
perfectly, naturally Ras, and the sob gathering within Phileas escaped as a
short, gasping laugh of bittersweet despair. Sometimes one only wins by
letting go.
"Give Father
my regrets that I have no intention of joining him… for a very long time."
And Phileas let
go.
The deadly chill
retreated, but Erasmus’ hand still rested on Phileas’ chest for a long moment.
Then he felt his brother lean closer. Light fingers brushed his tears away; a
kiss was pressed against his forehead, warm as a shaft of sunlight, breathing
life into his soul.
"Rest
now," Erasmus whispered, and the darkness faded away.
"Phileas!"
The jarring cry
woke Phileas rudely from what felt very much like a deep and comfortable sleep.
The cold and darkness of the alley, the throbbing pain in his head, rushed
straight back to the top of his awareness. Two—no, three figures were closing
in on him. And that waft of rose perfume…
It was Rebecca,
and that meant Passepartout and Jules had to be near as well. His eyes flew
open; indeed, his servant and the young writer were bending over him.
"Steady,
Phileas." Rebecca was kneeling by his head, and if his bleary eyes did not
deceive him in the poor light of the alley, her expression was one not of
concern… but disgust. "Why must you do this to yourself? …Come on, let’s
get him up."
Before Phileas
could protest, Verne and Passepartout had him by the arms and were hauling him
upright. Even as he unsteadily got his feet underneath him, he reached for his
wounded side, an instinctive effort to hold his insides in—
But there was no
pain.
His breath caught,
and he gingerly probed his ribs with his fingers; nothing. He lifted his hand
and looked at it in the moonlight; not a trace of blood.
A dream… all a
dream.
"Phileas?"
Now Rebecca’s voice wavered uncertainly. "Are you alright?"
He blinked and
frowned, amazement warring with bitter disappointment in his heart.
"Yes."
Well, almost. His
head still hurt like the Devil, and his balance was none too trustworthy; the
concussion was certainly real enough. He tried to straighten to his full
height, swayed dangerously, and was caught by Verne and Passepartout. As he
gripped Verne’s shoulder to steady himself, his fingers found a ragged tear in
the younger man’s coatsleeve.
"Why Verne,
presenting yourself like this in public?" he murmured dryly, fingering the
damage. He peered more closely at the garment, recognized it, and scowled—with
more dismay than he truly felt. "And my best coat, really, Verne."
The younger man
ducked his head, his blush visible even in the dark. "It’s… a long
story."
Rebecca folded her
arms and glowered at her cousin. "And speaking of long stories. What
happened to you, Phileas? We already know you were robbed." She paused,
her voice lowering. "You must have been drunk to let that
happen."
So that was what
they thought. Just like Erasmus—or what he’d thought was Erasmus. They assumed
he had gone out to muddle his head with drink, rather than clear it in the
evening air; find Phileas Fogg lying in a gutter, and he must obviously have
passed out drunk. Never mind that it was not alcohol, but worry over Rebecca’s
welfare that had clouded his alertness at the time.
Oh well… Perhaps
it was what he deserved. It stung, but after all, Rebecca had not said it with
very much conviction. In fact, for a brief moment, he’d thought he heard
genuine fear for him in her voice… but he felt as far away from fear as he ever
had in his life.
"I needed to
let go," he said simply.
His cousin sighed
and shook her head, turning to Jules and Passepartout. "Let’s take him
home."
Stepping into his
house on Saville Row brought Phileas a more intense feeling of comfort than
usual. He was still dazed, and now grappling with the certainty that his visit
from Erasmus could not have been real, but only the product of a head
injury. It was a difficult conclusion to come down to, after the moment of
absolute belief which he had experienced.
He hadn’t much
time to dwell on it. Passepartout insisted—in his own polite and servile way,
of course—on subjecting Phileas to his mildly inept nursing skills. So, in
short order, Phileas was squirming on a chair in the sitting-room as his valet
examined the back of his head. There seemed to be no serious injury, but he had
taken a distinct lump, probably when he was first felled by the thief. That
part of his misadventure was quite real, as proven by the articles missing from
his person: his pocketwatch, a bit of money. Nothing of great value to him…
except for the bracelet.
While Phileas was
being thus administered to, Verne sank into a chair, after throwing the
illicitly borrowed coat over the back of it. His paleness contrasted sharply
with the dark shadows under his eyes, which were half-open at best. He was
going to pass out himself before long.
"Oh,
Passepartout, stop fussing with me and get Verne up to his bed," Phileas
groused suddenly, trying to duck away from his servant’s hands.
Verne snapped to
alertness. "No, I’m alright. You first, Fogg."
Rebecca had given
Phileas some sketchy details of their search for him on the way home. She was
seated on the sofa now, hands folded in her lap. "Well, Phileas, the
authorities should have no trouble finding the thief, after what you did to
him. At least according to the man he allegedly sold your things to. Oh, I
really should have kept hold of him for questioning."
"Never
mind," Phileas said quietly. "There’s plenty of time to sort all that
out. Actually, what I’d like to know is… why did you come looking for me?"
His cousin shot a
glance toward Verne, who was drooping in his chair like an unwatered flower.
The writer jerked to attention as though he had been physically prodded.
"What? Oh… I just… had a feeling."
Phileas arched an
eyebrow in bemusement. Perhaps he wasn’t the only one being affected oddly by
All Hallows Eve, after all.
"Master, I
will getting some ice for this lumpiness," Passepartout announced behind
him, and trotted out of the room before Phileas could negate the proposal.
A sudden, quiet
snore came from the direction of Verne’s chair.
Rebecca smiled,
rose from the sofa, and crossed the room to gently spread Phileas’ damaged coat
over their sleeping friend. In a very motherly way she tucked him in, and
Phileas thought he heard her whisper something—"No nightmares tonight,
Jules"—but he wasn’t quite sure.
Phileas sighed; he
was tired as well, and his head still ached. Looking up at his cousin, he said,
"Bugger Passepartout’s ice. What I want is to sleep." With that he
rose from his seat, and slowly walked out of the room. Rebecca followed at a
few paces’ distance, perhaps concerned that he might fall over, but he didn’t
feel like minding a little concern just now.
Halfway down the
hall, he was arrested by Passepartout’s voice. "Master?"
He turned slowly,
expecting some form of reproach for escaping Passepartout’s tender mercies, but
that was not the case. The valet was coming up the hall toward him, looking
more perplexed than usual as he turned over some small item in his hands.
"There was a
knock-knocking at the door, and I am finding only this on the doorstep."
Passepartout held out the object for his master’s inspection.
Phileas stared for
a long moment. Then, snatching the object from Passepartout’s hands, he headed
for the front door at a full run.
The stout locks
were a miserable nuisance as his fingers stumbled over the bolts. At last they
gave way, and he threw the door open. As he did so, to the southeast, he could
hear the bells of the great Parliament clock-tower begin to ring out across the
city.
The street was
deserted. Nothing so much as a stray cat was stirring on Saville Row.
A wave of rapidly
shifting emotions swept through Phileas: disappointment, grief, gladness, and
finally, understanding. He looked down at the bracelet—his bracelet—now
resting safely in the palm of his hand, and clutching it against his heart, he
smiled solemnly.
The bells ceased
to ring; he had not counted the chimes, but he knew. It was midnight, now the
first day of November, and All Hallows Eve was past.
"Phileas?"
Rebecca queried behind him. "What’s wrong?"
He closed the door
slowly, and only then turned to face her, his smile warming. "Nothing is
wrong," he answered, stepping aside to let Passepartout dutifully rebolt
the locks.
Rebecca stared at
the bracelet in puzzled curiosity. "Whoever could have brought that back?
I suppose the peddler must have had a change of heart—but how could he have
found us?"
"No,"
Phileas replied quietly. "It was… a very old and dear friend."
She gave him an
odd look, but did not question him further. Meanwhile, Passepartout had
finished with the locks, and was now peering at the bracelet as well—with a
less comprehending but more observant eye than Rebecca’s.
"The
fastening has broke, Master," he noted. "Passepartout could fixing
this… if you will wanting."
Phileas frowned at
his sometimes overly inventive manservant, remembering the debacle of the
polishing-solvent—but then his expression softened, and with a faint sigh, he
reverently turned over the bracelet to Passepartout. "Oh, very well."
The Frenchman
smiled. "Yes, Master! I will even fixing the scrapement which idiot
Passepartout caused with the untarnishing agency."
"No. Don’t do
that." Phileas put his hand over Passepartout’s. "Leave it as it is.
Only repair the clasp."
Passepartout
frowned in mild puzzlement, but clicked his heels together and bowed slightly.
"Then I will putting it away safe until morning, Master. You are wanting
for bed now?"
"Yes."
Phileas smiled wearily. "I am wanting for bed. But see to that, first."
The valet bowed
again, and scurried off.
"I never have
understood why you wear that thing, Phileas," Rebecca mused, watching
Passepartout’s retreat.
"Ah.
Well." Phileas came as close as he ever did to shrugging. "Only a
piece of the past, my dear cousin. And perhaps one of the many I would do
better to let go… but it has its place in my heart."
A place which a
bullet should otherwise have occupied,
he added silently.
In short order
Phileas lay in bed, half-asleep, as Passepartout moved about the bedroom and
fussed with various articles of clothing—laying out his master’s wardrobe for
the next day, then gathering the clothes which Phileas had just replaced on his
own person with his nightshirt. The nearly inaudible sound of the valet going
about his domestic tasks was oddly comforting.
He had been wrong,
Phileas decided, to compare himself to that lost soul for whom the
Jack’s-lantern was named. Perhaps his way, too, lay somewhere between Heaven
and Hell—but he had more, much more, than one lonely spark to fill the
darkness. He had Rebecca and Verne and Passepartout. As long as he walked in
the light of their affection and friendship, his soul was not yet lost.
A muffled noise of
perplexity came from Passepartout’s direction. Phileas frowned, and reluctantly
rolled over to survey whatever problem had arisen. "What is it?"
"Your
clothings, Master." Passepartout turned, holding up the shirt Phileas had
been wearing that night. "How was this happened?"
So saying, he
thrust three fingers through a large hole beneath the left sleeve, waggling
them at Phileas. Then he withdrew his hand, shrugging both his shoulders and
his eyebrows.
For a moment,
Phileas gazed in wonder at the knife-slashed garment.
Then he calmly
rolled over again, drawing the covers up around him. "A minor accident,
Passepartout. Have it mended, will you? I rather like that shirt."
He could almost
hear the gears grinding in Passepartout’s head. "Yes, Master."
After a few more
moments, Passepartout slipped out of the room with the clothes that needed
laundering and mending. Silence descended, and Phileas committed himself to his
need for sleep.
He was not quite
sure whether or not he had drowsed off when he heard his door open again. The
scent of roses identified Rebecca; he lay still, feigning sleep, as he sensed
her closing in on him. Her hair tickled his cheek as she leaned over him—and
she placed a kiss on his forehead, light as a breath, in precisely the place
where Erasmus had done the same.
"You’re
utterly impossible, Phileas," she whispered fondly. "But I love you
anyway."
She silently
withdrew. Phileas let her get halfway to the door before he turned his head and
spoke.
"Rebecca?"
His cousin froze,
hesitated, and turned, perhaps somewhat chagrined—not only at her words and
deed, but her state of undress. She was wearing a dressing-gown over her
nightgown, and her long copper-red hair hung loose over her shoulders.
"Yes,
Phileas?" she answered, badly attempting to sound casual.
He smiled.
"What would you say, if I told you I had spent the evening… arguing with
Erasmus?"
She gaped in
surprise—yet somehow, she seemed to lack the incredulity he had expected. And
gradually, the expression changed to a smile that must have been very much like
his.
"I might say
that it was a dream come true," Rebecca said softly. "Good night,
Phileas."
She went out of
the room, and Phileas closed his eyes.
The sitting-room
clock was ticking again, but this time, Jules Verne did not find it annoying.
Now it was as comforting a reminder and reassurance of life as the pulse in his
own veins. No more did he feel the fear of time that he had felt earlier; the fear
that they would find his friend Phileas Fogg too late. They had found
him, safe and reasonably well. Everyone was safely home, and for once Jules
felt he might sleep without the night terrors that so often came upon
him—something of an irony for the Eve of All Saints, when thoughts might so
easily become dark with ghosts and witches and other terrible things.
So he drowsed
right where he was, curled up in the armchair in the sitting-room. Someone had
covered him with Fogg’s coat, but he wasn’t sure who; Rebecca, perhaps, or
Passepartout.
Distantly he heard
the sound of the door closing. As he drifted in the pleasant twilight between
sleep and waking, for a moment he thought that Passepartout, Phileas, and
Rebecca must all have left the room… but no. Someone was still there. A
presence, a sound of movement, as the figure moved closer to Jules. He felt a
hand come to rest on his shoulder. Then he heard a voice, a hollow whisper,
close to his ear—yet he did not feel its breath against his cheek.
"You answered
my call… you went to my son. Thank you, Jules Verne."
With a jolt, Jules
started fully awake. For a single instant, he thought he saw before him the
face of a white-bearded old man; yet the sitting-room was empty, and he was
alone.
Save for the clock
that was softly tolling midnight.
~
FINIS ~
© 2004 Jordanna Morgan